Sage- WC#1

Here it is.

this is for the newer idea for my 30 letters. It's told from Gaige's point of view... he lost the girlfriend and love of his life. It's his thoughts.

Sleep. Cry. Eat. Shit. Work. Cry. Repeat. Awake. Shampoo. Condition. Cry. Drink. Clear out Charlie’s desk. Cry. Drink. Sleep. Repeat. Dream. Love. Cry. Mourn. Attend funeral. Cry. Sleep. Repeat. Count in multiples on six backwards from 2956. Begin. 2956, 2950, 2946, 2928… repeat. Cry. Mourn. Talk. Cry. Sleep. Drink. Repeat. Shampoo. Condition. Mo. urn. Walk. Run. Trip. Fall. Hurt. Band-Aid. Home. Bed. Sleep. Dream. Love. Sex. Miss. Longing. Repeat. Concentrate. Drink. Finish. Work. Read. Smell her clothes. Dream. Sleep. Repeat. Miss. Long. Call home. Call Charlie. No answer. Cry. Miss her more. Call her mother. Get angry. Call her father. Miss her more. Call her lawyer. Miss her more. Call her doctor. Miss her more. Close her accounts. Miss her more. Smell her shoes. Miss her more. Sleep on her side of the bed. Miss her more. Wish she were here. Miss her more. Think. Sleep. Piss. Hate. Drink. Eat. Repeat. Count. More. Numbers. Safety. Lose place. Start again. 1, 2, 3, 4… forget her face. Hang pictures. Miss her more. Wear her clothes. Miss her more. Pretend. Deny. Hate. Punch. Bloody hand. Bandage. Pain. Wanting. Miss her more. Laugh. Cry. Laugh again. Cry some more. Cry. Sleep. Repeat. Sleep. Cry. Eat. Shit. Work. Cry. Repeat. Awake. Shampoo. Condition. Rinse. Touch. Call her sister. Laugh about her querks. Call her mother. Apologize. Call her father. Have heart to heart. Read her journals. Love her more. Read her bills. Laugh at her spending. Shampoo. Rinse. Follow instructions. Start to go outside for loner walks. Miss her more. Start to eat again. Miss her still. Start to talk to people again. Miss you’re friends. Start to laugh more freely. Start to remember more. Love her still. Start to go to work again and begin more normal daily routines. Shampoo. Condition. Rinse. Cry. Look at her picture. Laugh. Kiss her picture. Cry. Forget her laugh. Look in old videos for three hours. Call home. Talk to sister. Go for visit. Shampoo. Condition. Rinse. Repeat. Talk to her picture. Tell her about your day. Miss her. Pretend to hold her. Talk to her mother. Hang up the phone quietly. Remember her smile in the sunshine. Smile. Kiss. Laugh. Want. Lust. Love her. Hold her. Kiss her. She’s dead. Charlie is dead. No more Charlie. Go for a run. Run far away. Get lost. Call help. Go home. Bathe. Eat. Cry. Laugh. Smile. Sleep. Repeat. Pretend. Angry. Love her more for leaving. Hate her for leaving so soon. Love her more for everything she’s done. Hate her more for everything she left you. Go through her stuff. Laugh at her antics. Clean her clothes from the dresser. Only smell two blouses and one pair of pants. Clear her shoes from the hall. Send them to storage. Sleep. Drink. Rinse. Repeat. Remember. Laugh. Cry. Walk. Run. Sleep. Shower. Read her favorite story. Think of her less each day. Cry less each day. Try not to forget her. Charlie, where are you my love. Where have you gone?